I am a happy person
I have my ‘episodes’
I have my ‘moments’
But I am happy
Some days my happiness sends me a quick reminder that it still exist.
Today was a reminder
I was driving back to our house from Wal Mart and my kids were in the back seat surprisingly quiet. I turned on the radio and a song by Selena Gomez was on (which quickly falls of my scale for good music btw) and they both started singing along, makig funny faces, and laughing. I glanced at my kids from the rear view mirror and I smiled. I felt strange. I felt like I haven’t smiled in the longest time. My face felt renewed.
I turned up the volume and quietly laughed to myself.
I used to loathe my existence.
I used to avoid happiness.
I used to be oblivious to love.
Even now, some days I wonder if it is real, all of it.
So, Happiness sends me a reminder that I am still alive. I am worthy of being happy. I am capable of giving and receiving love.
A wake up call.
I am happy today.